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What Happen in 2020 &2021 it is a reset

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  It going to be a lonnggggggg post. Get ready. Hahaha 2020 definitely the craziest roller coaster ride . To be very honest, i almost give up. Dia macam kau naik roller coaster pastu kau turun tapi tak nampak penghujung turun tu kat mana. Anxious.  Early 2020, my life already miserable. Masalah dari 2019 dibawa ke 2020 adalah satu kesalahan besar. I swallow everything. Masa tu level busy dia macam tak ada kesudahan, dengan mana nak uruskan hal student intern, mana nak fikir boss semendang ajak meeting, cuti pun kena datang, there are times i work more than12 hour tapi masih ada yang kata aku tak put effort. Koyak tapi hadap je lah. Walaupun ada benda yang jadi dekat 2019 , yang sepatutnya aku rasa sedih tapi tak sempat nak rasa sedih sebab busy sangat. Ada hari yang tak tahan sangat sampai literally cried infront of everyone, depan boss besar, depan PIC, depan intern. Itu yang nangis depan orang, yang nangis sorang sorang tak ada orang nampak lagi. Haiihhhhhh. Tapi, the days where i me
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#9 This is not the end

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tahun ni tak ada wrap up untuk 2018, sebab memang planned nak update pasal the end of my degree life. i finally habis degree. not officially habis sebab ada satu sem internship. tapi dah tak perlu pergi kelas, assignments dan rindu rumah. how is it feel ? i don't know. it is a mixed feelings. kau rasa happy sebab kau dah habis belajar, kau rasa sedih sebab kau tinggalkan kawan kawan kau, kau rasa lega akhirnya kau habis, setiap sem kau cakap kau penat, nak berhenti , rindu rumah sekarang kau duduk rumah sepenuhnya, dalam masa yang sama kau takut sebab kau tak tahu apa akan jadi dekat depan. i still remembered clearly, macam mana aku nangis masa kena tinggal dengan umi ayah dekat depan pintu DTK. aku buat drama air mata kat situ, dengan hujannya lagi. lepas tu the next day aku jatuh tangga, terseliuh kaki, masa tu aku dah terfikir my university's journey not going to be easy. first. two weeks dekat uni, i literally go everywhere alone. sebab seorang syafiqah azli tak reti
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#7 What i really need?

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I have a long and deep conversation about what to do after degree life with my housemates. I told every single thing i planned to do. After all those conversation, at night when i about to sleep. There is one question come across my mind.  "Syafiqah, did u realize what your body and mind really need?".  Let be honest, deep inside me i know what my body and mind need but i'm in denial. I don't want to accept the fact that my mind and my body is tired.  I keep broke the promise that i make with myself. Every semester break i promise myself, let have a rest and enjoy everything u love to do. Read more book, write, sleep and going out and enjoy u life. I always end up working during semester break. I don't have time to read or write because my body is too tired to do so. At the end i make my body stress even more.  I know i need to shut down myself from the world and focus on myself. But i keep forcing myself to endure everything.  A few days ago,
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#6 That Sad Looking Guy

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That sad looking guy, Who have curly hair That sad looking guy, I always wonder what the world did to you that make u look so sad, That sad looking guy, I never thought i will ever talk to him. That sad looking guy, I never thought i will ever see his smile. That sad looking guy, I never thought we can click so well. That sad looking guy, I never thought that he has michivious side of him. That sad looking guy, His smile melt the ice of my heart. Everytime he smile, i get butterflies in my stomach. To the sad looking guy, Till we meet again. CUT ! PS: i dont really write poem. Because i am not good with words and obviously because i bad at it. 
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#5 untitled

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"do you like him" "Yes, i do", mudah sahaja bibir menutur kata kerana itulah hakikatnya.  " Habis kenapa reject dia?" , Semua memandang dengan tatapan serious menunggu jawapan yang bakal keluar dari mulut. " Susah la weyh", pandangan masih tak beralih, ada yang berkerut.  "Apa yang susah just say yes. Macam kau cakap kat kiteorang", keluhan keluar dari dua bibir.  "Cakap senang lah, banyak benda nak kena pertimbangkan lepas cakap yes tu", aku tak berapa gemar cakap pasal soal hati dan perasaan sebagai seorang perempuan yang complicated, dan aku rasa aku lebih complicated dari perempuan lain atas muka bumi ni. "Okay, cuba cerita",  "Macam ni, the moment aku cakap yes maknanya aku kena tengok ke depan. Banyak benda yang nak dilepaskan dan akan ada tanggungjawab baru yang bakal digalas",  " Kira kau tak habis bersuka ria lagi la ni", sampuk si tijah.  Mengeluh. Tidak pasti cerita i
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#4 HIGHLIGHT OF 2017

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the picture of me at the beginning of 2017. hi , hello. before anything i need to tell u guys something. this post already in my draft for almost a week. at first i want to add my picture , but im too lazy to connect my phone to laptop, so i said im going to do it later. then im busy with my final exam, when i have time suddenly i can't turn on my laptop. right now im writing this with my phone. i don't know how this whole thing will turn out. so this is the reason for why this thing is post at 5th january. so lets start with beginning of the year. i start my year with final year exam. i think i'm doing pretty well and the result come out pretty good. well i deserve that result with my effort that i put. to be honest nothing much happen in the first half of the year. except for me and my close friend can't be in the same class anymore because we are different faculty ( there is changing in system of my university too long to explain). but we still hangout
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